Taking advice from KT i talked to my friends about a personal situation, really awkward for all of us, but thanks to everyone for their patience and just hearing me out, btw they just kicked my ass and told me im a baby, not literally but verbally. And for good reason to. I must seem like such a royal bitch to a lot of people right now. So i feel a lot better, and the post office shananigans today with LM and MC were out of sight, someday ill write about it in a book, after the feds chase us down, it wasnt intentional, really!! this place can be so entertaining at times, especially now since we have no satelite tv.

Lately, sleep has still been optional, my mind just cant seem to stop racing 100mph wanting to learn more stuff, figuring things out, everyone says i look like ive just woken up all day long, and in some was i always feel like that, thanks to final exams and recent turn of events, so ive turned to reading and the occasional night drives around albuquerque, its amazing in just 15 minutes you can be in the mountains, on the mesa, or just wherever, you cant find that anywhere else. i find something sobering in driving, i always have. to feel in control of something is important when things seem so out of control is a need we all have sometimes.

I still need to apologize to KT but not really too sure how to go about it, since shell be gone for a while. things will be complicated, but hopefully theyll be workable.

I still need to "wake up." One more final exam to go. 9hrs Left till im done with this place.