Fall will officially be here in about 3 hours or so. It has been an interesting and trying Summer like none before. The changes from Summer to Fall are usually not so drastic, but this time it is from hot to cold. And the changes I will face in my life are no different. Though the prospect of being alone is scary, at first, the notion and freedom could be a good thing, though it feels like a ton of bricks and a hole in the heart will result... I am readying myself for that feeling again. Out of extreme sadness sometimes come big things.

The jury inside is still ruling on this, only time will tell. So many things are in need of repair, but are they beyond the point of fixing?

In Repair- John Mayer

Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right

Oh it's taking so long
i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady

I am in repair, i am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new look upon me

Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong,
i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady

I am in repair, i am in repair

And now i'm walking in a park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me

Oh it's taking so long
i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unready

Oh i'm never really ready, i'm never really ready
I'm in repair,
i'm not together but i'm getting there
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there